Taurus New Moon — Out of the Ordinary

Here I am, on a Taurus New Moon in Kathmandu, with my trek to Everest Base Camp just around the corner.

During my morning sadhana today, I reflected on how I once wished to walk the Camino with my son for this recent milestone birthday.  Instead, life has led me here: to the mountains of Nepal, to the call of Everest, The Nepali name Sagarmatha (सगरमाथा). It means "Forehead (or Head) of the Sky." In Tibetan, it's called Chomolungma (ཇོ་མོ་གླང་མ), meaning "Goddess Mother of the World."

As the days draw closer, the fears, the doubts, the worries about my body’s strength — all of it has risen to the surface.  I am scared.  Every ache feels like a warning.  Every twinge whispers, "Maybe you can’t do this."

Yes, I am freaking out.  And — I have a choice.

This Taurus New Moon, I choose to ground myself.  To listen more deeply.  To trust the sacred wisdom of my body.  To let the simple pleasures — breath, movement, silence, prayer — become my companions.

I choose to believe I am deserving of this journey.  To trust that over the next nine months, something sacred will unfold within me.

I can’t walk this path from fear — unless that fear becomes fuel for transformation.

I hear it from others: 

"It’s strenuous." 

"The altitude is dangerous." 

"It’s mentally tough." 

And then I hear: 

"You can do it." "You’ve got this."

I remember: I have given birth.  I have crossed mental terrains more treacherous than mountains. No, I have not faced altitude like this before.

But maybe — Instead of fearing the altitude, I can welcome it.  Let it clear my mind.  Let it reshape my spirit.  Let it humble me, teach me, awaken me.

How can this danger become a doorway? 

How can this altitude adjust my attitude — Empowering me to stand in a more gracious and humble state?

How can this trek be less about the summit and more about a journey of simplicity and humility?

How may I reach the depths of GOD within me?

• May my Breath Generate the vitality and life force I need.

• May my Body Organize its strength and sacred matrix to meet the journey.

• May I Trust and Surrender to the unknown, allowing the Mountains to Deliver me to what is essential and Dissolve what no longer serves.

  
  

G — O — D: Generate. Organize. Deliver & Dissolve. 

The sacred architecture of my prayer.

This is my New Moon in Taurus intention. 

This is the offering of my heart to the great Mystery.